Pro Duece

 We got a comedy special we're producing this month for a local comedian, that's going to be an incredible time. It's amazing that I get to do dope shit with a tight crew and performers that are eager to prove they're professional and dependable and talented. 

 The life balance lately has been good, work is rolling along smoothly, the kids are awesome and Roland has been becoming my li'l athlete. We've been playing tennis like my mom and I used to, so sweet. Naomi is rigging a scorpion character in Blender that pulls a covered wagon and I'm DYING, she's so GOOD! She mentioned a book she's been wanting to read called "House of Leaves" that looks pretty mind boggling, so I ordered that for her birthday next month. Sweet 16! I'll have to get her out to practice driving more and get her hooked up with a permit. She'll eventually thank me, but she does seem pretty hesitant at this point. Drivers of Colorado Springs are all over the place. I didn't drive until I was 18, and by then it didn't seem that such a big deal.

 Hoping that AI replaces me at work soon and I can go live in a mound of dirt. WOOO!

 

Schobizz

 There have been torturous, tortuous points in my life. With purpose, though, I say this: I'd do it all over again. My faith lies in no man, man-made agenda or teachings. While many are using their own words to translate what they've learned for themselves, it's not another human that is the source. While they can help us feel like we're on the right or wrong path, they've never been on anyone else's path to know where it actually ends up going for a person that isn't them.

Even when I'm tired of being strong, I need to lean into it. Letting another person do the work that is mine to do is a quick way to give up power, which I will regret at some point down the road. The work of building a support system, for instance. For me, I never felt I belonged in the middle of a formed group, insulated from other groups. The edge always appealed, that's where my gifts became evident. That's where some may become afraid. My support system right now gets it too. A valance electron keeping things energized, though getting a lot of one thing and none of another is very popular in some circles. Opportunities can be found.

Having fun is important. 

Stoff

 Been cohosting shows with Vincent-boyfriend over the last few months. About once a month. It was at his studio space which became hostile, so this Friday our next show/taping is at my favorite venue, Frisky's!

Our theme is Break Up Day, which is observed a week after Valentine's Day and is (in my opinion) more interesting. No one has asked me to be their Valentine yet. They have asked for a massage though. Haha. What a comfort I must be. 

My cousin Matthew is moving back out here next week! With his beautiful girlfriend and her two boys, I'm so happy! Her and I have a lot in common, sense of adventure, grit, a will to stay strong and make life fun and have goals. She immediately was on board with the land plan and has... AMBITION?! So exciting! She has a competitive side too and even won a pickle-eating contest!!! How can you not love her?! She's allowed to be my sister.