Quirkly

Bouncing around, holding in my pee - I'm excited because, well, you see: learning is always possible and I love possibility. Learning how to spot the next opportunity. Learning how to love the best so love can come to me. Learning how to express it all and set my spirit free. A hot tear may fall, rolling down my cheek while thinking back on all the sweetness I was dipped in this past week. A sniffle and a smile, but not inclined to speak - just to listen. Finally. 

Yesterday I took a lovely walk with my daughter. She's nine and different than me, it's great to learn from her. When you love someone SO hard, you have to learn. I think my mom probably feels the same way about me. Thanks for loving me so hard, mom:) Thanks for believing in me.

Sour Router

I posted a router on Craigslist three weeks ago and I finally got my first call today. I'm surprised so many people don't care about getting charged every month for something they could just buy once. Not everything has to be a service. I DO like Spotify though.

Weight loss. I'm losing weight lately - initially from stress and not having a car - but now I know how good it feels to fit into some old clothes I've been keeping around for the day I get "skinny" again. That is motivating. I was creeping dangerously close to 170 lbs, now I'm 140 and trying to get under 135, since that's when I'm not considered overweight for my 5'2" height. I've only been as low as 129 as an adult. My muscles always keep me a bit heavy, I'm a beefy breed and I don't mind at all. Like a bulldog person, but way sexier. It's nice to be able to hike in Colorado and I've been working out at the gym in my work building and taking advantage of the sauna. What a great place to meditate and dehydrate. It's the me-time I've been desperately seeking and didn't really believe I needed for way too long.

Today is the day my husband's mother passed away 27 years ago. Every time this date comes around again I realize how powerful mothers are.