The Infinite Ramblings of April Compo

The Infinite Ramblings of April Compo

Thursday, May 24, 2018

Letting Goo

As some of you may or may not know, or might have suspected, or had a hunch: I enjoy a good guided meditation. I listen on YouTube to Michael Sealey, mainly. Right now I'm living in Colorado in a rented room with my family (husband and two little kids). We moved here after staying at a homeless shelter for two weeks. Jason-husband inquired on a website if anyone had a spare room and a kind family responded. We met up and had some Dunkin Donuts and our kids all had a blast immediately, they're pretty much the same ages, coincidentally. We've all become such good friends and pretty much needed each other. I now have a karaoke buddy, a great influence, stability, kindness... it's enough to make me cry with appreciation and joy.

Last year was so hard and so educational. We've been in this house for nearly ten months and I've agreed to watch the children over the summer and, in many ways, continue my education. The mutual respect in this house is pure delight! The unnecessary, unimportant, worrisome things are slowly sluffing off of me and my life. The good - things and moments and people - are rising up around me. Meditating has been a very important key to accepting this reality: the world is full of kindness and the universe wants us to succeed. Good wins when we fight alongside it. We may have to fight ourselves intensely too, accept and admit our own not-so-good ways so we can work with what we've got.

Now I have to go help my daughter do some origami!

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Co Co.

I live in Colorado, or "CO", when abbreviated. My maiden name is "Cook" and my married is "Compo", both beginning with "C-O". Weird (maybe). I think if I were to start a business I would name it "Co Company" or "Co Co." for short. I guess I should be selling chocolate.

...and that is how rambling is done, foo'.

Actually I might apply for a job at Rocky Mountain Chocolate something-or-other and tell that story to get hired. People love strange connections, or any connections. However, I recently learned how to make fudge and it would probably be more profitable to sell my own, if I did it in earnest. A food scale would be needed - probably another good, heavy-bottomed pot and thermostat to have two pots going at once. Mmm, this orange-chocolate fudge Brandy and I made was too right. No wonder I've gained weight (still did a chin-up yesterday!) Strength exercises really do help in the long run, I probably would have gained even more if I didn't try to keep my muscles sore from push ups and squats throughout the week. Half-assed yoga too! Mostly I just do cat-cows and reach up and fold over (real simple stretches), but I'm getting amazing lung capacity because I focus on the breathing.

ANYWAYS, I'm gunna try and sell some art on Saturday. My helpful roommate Brandy and I decided on prices for some originals from the last few years and she's getting a spot at a craft fair type thing. I just have to make sure they're all signed/dated. Honestly, I'll have to guess on the undated ones... can't see how that would matter though, I'll just claim it was part of the painting and not meant to represent the real date if I ever get caught. This blog is now evidence against me I guess. Or for me? Ugh, who cares

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Flo No Mo

The court did call back to schedule an interview... during the week that I would be in Colorado for my cousin's wedding! So, I didn't get THAT job, but I DID move back to Colorado. There was a friend that offered me a room and a week after we moved in she said I had to find another place to live. Ain't that sweet? We lived in a shelter for a couple weeks and then found another room with a stranger (which has been so much better than family and friends).

The wedding I attended was fantastic, we all stayed in a beautiful cabin where two creeks merged in the mountains and I hiked everyday and yes, there was a hot tub. Worth it.

Right now Jason is working at a grocery store stocking shelves and I'm watching Roland and getting Nay to school, applying for jobs and looking into volunteering at the Children's Museum so I can do something related to art with my life. ANYWHO, I have to go wipe Roland's butt now since he can't reach the weird toilet paper holders (and I don't quite trust his wiping skills just yet). Hmm, he is pooping and whispering "Minecraft". Haha.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Existing


Moving back to Florida has been hard. Grandma's house got infested with bedbugs three weeks before I came and no one (except my uncle that lives there) knew. He had to drink an unknown number of beers to work up the courage to tell us, after I had brought all my belongings into the house. Rather than deal with him, I've been living with my parents and two brothers. My brothers each have their own room and my kids and I are sleeping in the living room. I've been applying for jobs and received a single offer for a 3rd shift at a flooring manufacturing facility that requires multiple 12 hour shifts during the week. I had to decline because I'm physically incapable of working those hours. The furniture is uncomfortable to sleep on, so we've been blowing up an air mattress every night, which is also uncomfortable. There is no real point in complaining about any of this to anyone around me, they are all dealing with their own mental conditions. One job I would love to get interviewed for is court clerk. Please may they call me back! Working at a courthouse would be AWESOME! Getting the kids into school next month will also be nice. If I can't get hired anywhere by then I'll have to figure something out to pay the (very few) bills I have. Worrying is pointless though. Just gotta keep truckin' and doing yoga and taking walks in the forest:)

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Ways to Weigh Whey

Then I moved to Florida. What next? Hopefully an enjoyable career and continued education within an interesting field.  Like a professional napper or highly experienced breather & blinker. Slightly more challenging occupations may be considered, however. I gotta go cut my mom's hair now.  Peace.

Saturday, April 1, 2017

Be Leave Me

Hot dang, I moved away from Colorado. What a crazy month and a half it has been! There must've been a straw to finally break the proverbial camel's back and I left my job and most possessions and loaded up the kids and hit the road, Jack. I start a new job in a couple days at a hospital, setting appointments for physicians - a Call Center Specialist I shall be. The women that have interviewed me have been outstanding! I can't wait to start and get trained and move on up. The little town I moved to is just adorable and charming, close to a much larger city so I don't feel like I'm in the middle of nowhere. I even have a little herb garden with dill, basil and rosemary AND a yellow pear tomato plant. I'm down to 131 pounds, which is surprising since it doesn't even feel like I've tried very hard to lose more weight. It's just happening naturally I guess - especially with all the yoga, weights, jump roping, and not eating until feeling like a bloated tick I've been doing. Psyllium husk fiber y'all. Apple cider vinegar too. Magic stuff when all combined together into a routine. I hope working in an office doesn't set me back. A quote I like to remember from this dumb book I've been reading is "don't let others make you fat and stupid", so I don't think I'll be falling for the break room calorie fests any time soon since I'm just feeling too good without that 38 extra pounds hanging on me. Just need a million dollars to spend on a new wardrobe now - I'm lookin' all baggy all the time.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Sour Router

I posted a router on Craigslist three weeks ago and I finally got my first call today. I'm surprised so many people don't care about getting charged every month for something they could just buy once. Not everything has to be a service. I DO like Spotify though.

Weight loss. I'm losing weight lately - initially from stress and not having a car - but now I know how good it feels to fit into some old clothes I've been keeping around for the day I get "skinny" again. That is motivating. I was creeping dangerously close to 170 lbs, now I'm 140 and trying to get under 135, since that's when I'm not considered overweight for my 5'2" height. I've only been as low as 129 as an adult. My muscles always keep me a bit heavy, I'm a beefy breed and I don't mind at all. Like a bulldog person, but way sexier. It's nice to be able to hike in Colorado and I've been working out at the gym in my work building and taking advantage of the sauna. What a great place to meditate and dehydrate. It's the me-time I've been desperately seeking and didn't really believe I needed for way too long.

Today is the day my husband's mother passed away 27 years ago. Every time this date comes around again I realize how powerful mothers are.