There have been torturous, tortuous points in my life. With purpose, though, I say this: I'd do it all over again. My faith lies in no man, man-made agenda or teachings. While many are using their own words to translate what they've learned for themselves, it's not another human that is the source. While they can help us feel like we're on the right or wrong path, they've never been on anyone else's path to know where it actually ends up going for a person that isn't them.
Even when I'm tired of being strong, I need to lean into it. Letting another person do the work that is mine to do is a quick way to give up power, which I will regret at some point down the road. The work of building a support system, for instance. For me, I never felt I belonged in the middle of a formed group, insulated from other groups. The edge always appealed, that's where my gifts became evident. That's where some may become afraid. My support system right now gets it too. A valance electron keeping things energized, though getting a lot of one thing and none of another is very popular in some circles. Opportunities can be found.
Having fun is important.
